My Release Is Messy

The heart of release is healing. This year I am trusting that God will release me from the place of bondage, of the perspective of bondage and into the promise of His blessing. The word “release” means to let free, to allow or enable something or someone to flow. I have to allow God to flow freely in all aspects of my life in order for Him to release me of the things that currently have me bound. However, I need to give God permission and authority to release His blessings into my life. I can’t place a cap on God, I can’t impose restrictions on Him. Have courage and allow Him to flow freely the way He wants to flow.

Genesis 12: The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.

“I will make you into a great nation,
    and I will bless you;
I will make your name great,
    and you will be a blessing.
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I will bless those who bless you,
    and whoever curses you I will curse;
and all peoples on earth
    will be blessed through you.”

I look at the story of Abraham in Genesis 12, this is the perfect example of the difference between God revealing His blessing and releasing it. The requirement from reveal to release, is time. God revealed an incredible vision to Abraham, a vision of many descendants and a blessed nation. But when Abraham looked at his current situation, there was no way he could even think of having a child in his old age. When God places a vision for our lives, it will never line up with where you are currently at or what you see around you. But that vision is supposed to pull your faith toward it.

God is so good that later he reminds Abraham of His promise to him, He knows how forgetful we can be sometimes. But again, Abraham is so confused and when he looks around him at his circumstance, he only sees his own barrenness. God speaks to us in our times of doubt and says “I am not looking at your barrenness, I am looking at my fruitfulness and faithfulness.” God spoke in the middle of Abraham’s situation which did not look right, but He spoke to what it will be.

After journeying through this story and the example given in God’s word of His ability to release us from places of bondage in our lives I felt rather enthusiastic and liberated. Woohoo! Bring on the blessings God ! But then I was faced with another story of release that brought me to face a tough question. What if my release is messy?

John 9:1-7

Jesus Heals a Man Born Blind

As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”

“Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.”

After saying this, he spit on the ground, made some mud with the saliva, and put it on the man’s eyes. “Go,” he told him, “wash in the Pool of Siloam” (this word means “Sent”). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing.

The way that this story is told revealed so many things to me and prepared me for what my release may just look like.

John 9:1 Release is the result of Jesus seeing you and not you seeing Him. The blind man could not see his way out or the answer to his problem, but Jesus saw him. The blind man wasn’t aware that Jesus was even around him. No matter what we are faced with in our lives, Jesus sees us.

John 9:2-3 We so view the problems that we are faced with as a punishment from God. Our God is a ion and Father, our problem is not a punishment from God, it is a platform for His power. If I do not allow God to flow freely in my life, I rob Him of His opportunity to raise an ugly situation and place it on a platform for others to see, so that they may witness His incredible power. I found myself in such a dark space and I got so angry at God, asking Him ” God if you are so good, why did you allow this to happen to me in the first place?” When I read this story, and how the disciples focused so intently on the reasons as to why the man was born blind, it settled onto my heart that the reason why it happened is not as important as what He is about to do.

John 9:6-7 When I first started asking God for release, I was so focused on Him pouring out blessings that I hadn’t stopped to consider the option that my release may have nothing to do with blessings and more to do with what is in my heart. I can’t let the method of release keep me from the miracle of release. God is asking me to walk with mud in my eyes, even though others can see that my miracle is messy. The thing about the blind man is that he had nothing to lose looking foolish to everybody else, because he couldn’t see how he looked anyway. In the midst of my turmoil and problem so much more stress and pressure has been placed on me, I have felt like God placed more on me, even when I was already in a blind situation.

Jesus told the man to Go. Going somewhere is a process and it takes time to get there, my deliverance and healing is a process. I will have to pull off things when I arrive that I never put there, but I will be pulling off what God meant to heal me there. Many of the miracles that God is about to do, He is not going to do without me. He touched me, put His DNA on me, sent me, but he last part of the release depends on me going.

The rawest version of you(dirt) mixed with the least part of Jesus(spit) can release you from what you’ve always been.

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